I’m here in my room thinking long and hard. I have exams starting tommorrow, and I’m just so tired. I discovered today that M is finally graduating. I remember when I used to be the first person to know the things going on in M’s life….anyway…I wish M only the best in life.
I read somewhere, that when you forget why you are hurt, then you are healed. I feel like that’s a done story. That ship has sailed, It’s probably in Iceland by now even.
Today, the new man in my life and I met. I have a confession, I am taller than him by half an inch. Today I noticed, I don’t know why. I don’t know why I’m already looking for a reason to jolt. He is perfect. And I haven’t spoken to him the whole day, like from 12 pm and I’m feeling sick. Am I falling in love. I have been reading and drifting off, thinking about him. I feel a bit stupid because we both have exams and I’m probably the one overthinking.
I love his presence in my life…Honestly I do.
I need to pass this exam I have tommorrow, lemme continue reading.
I hope everybody had a good easter weekend, I wish you all the best in the week ahead…xo
Exams are coming up in 2days. I am prepared…I feel like I am. The past month, March was so good to me. I feel like I have never been at a happier place in my life. I feel like am on a constant high of happiness. I think the new man in my life that I mentioned in the earlier blog is responsible.
I have been through so much BS with men, I felt like I was done, then God sent this amazing guy who actually really likes me. Who appreciates me, who finds the weirdest things I do to be the cutest things ever. He tells me am beautiful, he knows what to say when I’m feeling sad. And for him, I think it’s the same thing for him. We realised yesterday that we started talking like each other.
It’s been so long since I felt fucking revered. I appreciate that feeling so much. I want somebody that respects me, who understands me, who adores me, who gives me insight on things. I don’t want people who promote ganja or drink themselves to a stupor or who believe Sex is oxygen. That’s an immature person that cannot sustain a conversation…and those are so important to me, conversations I mean. I want somebody who has ambition, to be something, somebody…who even though they are 21years old, has the sense to avoid self destructive behaviour. I got myself an Old Soul, I like old souls…An old soul is a young person ie 22years old who is mature and doesn’t think like the average 22year old in society right now.
I digress. Exams are coming up. The end of the semester. I am so happy! I hate exams, but the next three weeks are going to be hectic for me. They come to an end on the 27th. I can’t wait for that weekend!! I’m gonna go crazy!