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I vented so much in this post!!

One moment I’m so happy, the other completely pissed off.

My sister is a very selfish person, and she always gets away with everything. Last night I got so mad, so fucking mad at her because of comments she was making about how tired she is….and she was in the house the whole day, I was at work. My mum needed help to label some things she’s supposed to sell in her shop and my dear sister had gone to sleep. When she finally agreed to help, she wasn’t pulling her weight and anything I was telling her she was ignoring. It all started on Sunday when I went for a concert that she didn’t want to go for earlier in the week. Or the stupid comments she makes when it comes to designing some clothes for my mums shop. She feels like she’s the artist, the only one with the artistic eye and that she’s the only one that can do it. She annoys me so much, and then she told my mum its unfair that I get to buy fabric to make the dresses I had wanted, she hasa refused to help me completely. I’m so done btw.

Me and my mum have the same phones, so we also have the same chargers. I forgot mine at a sleep over at my cousins house and yesterday I carried hers and forgot it in her shop. Around 11.40pm she asks for it and I tell her I’m sorry that I forgot it in her shop. And then she shouted at me for I don’t know how long. It was an honest mistake!!! Seriously, that shouting was too much. Then she goes to her room and comes back a few minutes later and apologizes.

Sometimes I don’t want to live with anybody, I feel like my life is so full of shit, I wish I could just start over. Everything in my life sucks. It’s not PMS, I just want to start with a clean slate next year. The only thing I believe that binds me to my so called family is money. I don’t have a source of income, I have to rely on my dear parents.

FuCk my life, I need a drink and its 7.30am.


Stop Ruining Lives.

when u decide to be ok with situations like being in a commitment free relationship where both parties are of mutual consent, I tend to wonder how some people are raised and what exactly drives someone to fuck a married man. You might try and justify yourself by saying that there’s the financial twist to it, and what you are parting with is just your thighs…and everybody knows how sex has become so kawaida (normal) nowadays, u dont see why i’m even bothering to write this post at 11.17 on a Wednesday night, plus its breaking the dry spells that ths blog is regularly accustomed to. I digress.
When you decide to go into this sort of symbiotic relationship, you are being selfish, and this today is for these excuses for women who ruin so many lives!! We all know men have this carnal instinct for women…they cant resist a nice looking woman with a cute tushie n wateva else it is they think about when they mentally undress a woman. For us women on the other hand, God gave us this gift where we control our inner animal and actually think about why we will sleep with X, why this top should be worn with that skirt and not that jewellery…case point is we as women are wired to think through situations, go through the details etc etc
When you are fucking a married man, he has a wife, kids, a job. When he doesn’t show up for his wedding anniversary because he’s busy spooning in ur bed with you….or when his 13year old son wakes up one morning and finds his bed covered in Wet drean residue (idk what it is in words O.o) and he has nobody to tell him that its all part of being a man…Mum is there yes, but she wouldn’t understand because Mum doesnt look like him, daddy does and daddy didn’t come home last night…he isn’t in bed with mummy either 😦 I try and imagine what goes through this little boys mind.
I’m taking this very seriously because I know quite a number of people who are ok with this. I’m so disappointed!
You women who are actually into married men and their money….I condemn you to eternal doom in hell …. HIV or syphillis even. Me by the way, that pain a family goes thru…I woud never wish that on anyone. Imagine it was your own dad doing that to your mum and you kids, or better yet, your bestfriend is having hot steamy sex with your father.
Please just stop.
That is all. The world can be a better place….Just change..
RIP M
😥


THE ONLY MAN IN MY LIFE :*

Today was my daddy’s birthday. I wish I was home you know…to celebrate the half a century he has been on planet earth. I had a cupcake though, to celebrate in my absentiure absence 🙂 Happy Birthday dad, I’m sure it was a normal day for you, I’m sure you even forgot!! I hope it wasn’t just any other Tuesday.

Today I will dedicate this post to my Daddy, for the lessons that he’s taught me, and why I continue to believe that every decision he makes is for the good of his family – he only wants the best for us. He is one of the most amazing people I know. I hope that as each day passes we continue to make you proud, I’ll never tell you this face to face bit I am proud of you!! Proud to be your product(hahaha, the joke is on me!).

Happy Birthday daddy….I wish you many many many many many more. I continue to learn from you everyday.

Love Always

xx

ps: 25days


Funny How…

  1. even after all that I’ve proven to the parents, they still don’t trust me.
  2. funny how those closest to you have this way of letting you down the most
  3. The world doesn’t stop for your grief, same things when you die..
  4. How your dreams make you or break you
  5. you choose to let someone in, only for them to leave before you need them to
  6. you think you need change because someone else saw it fit
  7. family should be there most but they really aren’t
  8. the one I loved, grew out of love before I did
  9. I want this picture perfect life, but I’m still searching for the strength to pursue it
  10. funny how right now, I could just jump out the window and end this shit…but I won’t. I still believe not all is lost.

The Broken Arrow will be mended –

**Shashai**