The song playing right now is Climax by Usher. The perfect song for what I’m feeling. I’m crying my eyes out. My friends had an intervention for me today. They really don’t like the man in my life. At all. And they have reason to. A relative of his told a friend of mine that he said that I was nothing to him. It’s not serious. We have no future. I feel like shit. To be honest, I don’t know why I thought He would be different.
He said all the right things, at the right time, and I believed them all. All the empty promises. All the sweet little nothings…All of it was a lie. I can’t believe it. And apparently he has a bad boy thing going on. I didn’t see it. It’s a pattern he has established and he is known for. Why the universe chose me to be his next muse, is beyond me. Especially after all the BS i’ve put up with in the past from significant others. I thought this time the universe was going to cut me some slack. He chose to show me the sides he knew I wanted to see. My BFF is tired of talking about him and this whole situation; She has washed her hands and I quote. This is the only way I can release my frustrations and hopefully move on. Somehow.
And here I was thinking my friends just want to mess my life up. They have done research on him and they came to me when they have enough proof so that I don’t brush them off as I have been doing for the past few weeks. I have never dated somebody like him, of his supposed class…apparently people of his upbringing socialize with people of a certain caliber and I will never make the cut. Am just a mess…sitted here with a box of tissues, bawling my eyes out.
What the fuck do I do? I don’t even want to look at him or be near him. I hate liars.
Why am I so unlucky?? Shit… 😥