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The 3Ls

I woke up in the morning with an allergic reaction and I took some medicine that made me sleep the whole day, meaning I had to skip work. I didn’t do anything with myself, no work, no english lesson – the student I was meant to meet went to the spa today and she sent me a text that she will go tomorrow and Friday too. I wish we could trade places.

I can’t wait to go home, the days are so few already. But something interesting happened today, I talked to my babe, technically we haven’t made it official or anything and I wish I could go stand outside on my rooftop terrace and shout till they hear me. I like that we’re taking things slow, and that we were friends before anything, and we understand each other. Nobody, knows what I really feel inside, when I’m hurting, when I’m happy – but I can talk about this things with this person.

And very few people know about us, its better to keep it that way because I’m superstitious like that. I don’t want people to jinx the relationship even before it ‘starts’. But I’m in a happy place. I won’t stop saying that. And its because of this new addition in my life. . . Today we were talking and this is what I said:

Life is so unpredictable and short, I can’t make myself suffer…Drake sums up everything I’m tryna say here: Everybody dies but not everybody lives…I don’t want to just exist, I want to live.

And I swear I’ve never felt so alive…doing things that you want to do, being with people that you want to be with, saying things that you want to say…why shouldn’t life be that simple?? It can be.

Live

Laugh

Love.
Life is too fucking short…#truestory

xx


Friday Morning…

I’m sitting in bed, its around 1pm, i had a late night yesterday, not partying, working. \

 

Sometimes I get so frustrated because I feel like when I leave Italy, I will go back the same person I was. I don’t want that…at all. Like i will feel like I wasted 6months here just increasing my waistline with the pasta, the wine and the pizza…It was supposed to be  a journey, like Liz from Eat Pray Love…I sincerely wish that I’d watched that movie before I came. Instead I watched When in Rome and Letters to Juliet, because, let me admit it I was in Love with the Idea of LOVE….throwing a coin over your shoulder in the Fontana di Trevi (which i did 2 weeks ago BTW) and falling in love :p Fuck Love.

And my inner confusion, with myself….I am in a constant tug of war with myself nowadays, I want to join the lifestyle because I think that is what I need at this moment in time. Somebody who is just like me, somebody who understands my feelings, reading Autostraddle helps, but somehow at the back of my mind, I feel like this isn’t me. And that’s what stops me from telling the object of my affection that I’m falling in Like…not Love (It doesn’t exist in my dictionary)because I don’t want them to feel like my science experiment..and that is what I feel it will be in the end…

I can’t wait to live in New York, where nobody gives a fuck about you, and you can just exist without people looking at you like you have a problem. I can already see myself in my Burberry Coat and Louboutins in Times Square eating a bagel….that is my dream destination before I’m 30.

And right now I can say that I don’t really care much anymore….stop sending me shopping lists and you people don’t even check up on me….yes..this is to my DEAR DEAR friends….fuck that by the way…i think it sucks!! We are all busy but we have to make time for each other…I’m not asking you to come visit me…I guess this is what they mean when they see people come and go!! Peace out

 


Its A beautiful Life

I’ve been busy lately, but I try to talk to God. I’d like to believe he’s listening anyway. I would much rather live my life believing there is a God and die to find out there isn’t, than live my life believing there isn’t a God and die to find our there is.

I’d like to say I stand up for what i believe and know what I’ve done is right no matter what other people think. “We judge ourselves by what we feel we’re capable of doing, while others judge us by what we’ve already done.” (long fellow) I live for those moments that take my breath away.

I know 2 people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. i believe If you really love it, you shouldn’t question it? Falling in love is beautiful, but a beautiful thing is never perfect. I’d never choose between my friends and the one I love.

“Take Time to think and to pinpoint what’s really important in your life.” (Martin) Love has no eyes, but love is not blind. I love hearing I’m beautiful, because when a guy tells you you’re beautiful, he’s looking at your heart. I love falling asleep listening to the rain. I love all night phone calls and waking up to realize i have a few more hours to sleep.

I love talking with my friends and laughing til our faces hurt, telling jokes no one else will ever understand. We don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I can laugh at myself, but I still cry if i get my feelings hurt. Sometimes it hurts a lot more to smile in front of everyone than to cry when you’re alone.

My very first kiss was my worst, but I know my last will be my best. I’ve learned that nothing will ever be like the first time, it might be better or it might be worse.

I believe the best things in life are unseen and that’s why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry, and dream. I’m a dreamer and i talk in my sleep, that’s the only place I know no one can hear me.

I tell myself things like…don’t walk in the shadows, there’s always tomorrow and i’m right where I want and need to be. “Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice, it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.” (Bryan)

Sometimes It hurts while it’s happening. Just know It may be over, but it won’t stop here. “To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end of life.” (Stevenson)

sometimes I want to make myself feel everything but it turns into nothing. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret…it could change your life forever and you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. But How will you ever know til you try?

This is MY beautiful life. The only things certain is everything and everyone changes. Lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes. As hard as it gets i know it’s still amazing to be alive. …It’s a beautiful life